I have no idea why do I write that....maybe it's because I wanted to say this?
You're not the 1st to say
You're not the 1st I met
You all claim that I am
But I am doing my best to change
You claim I did not know
You claim I was a fool
You haven't got a clue
You said it all while I stood and watch
You said it would be all right but when was that right?
I have mine and you have yours
Where was that chance I asked for?
It matters not
Talking was in the sense of pity from you
How do you think that would make me feel?
You thought I never knew
But YOU haven't got a clue
The times I cared for you went in vain
The times I thought I could because of you
The times I thought you were the one
The times were all illusions you made with lies
Piling up as pillars to block my sight
How do you think that would make me feel?
I've never been so dissapointed in anyone
But I have to resist because you're not worth it anymore...
To "you"...I've always looked up to you, but you dissapoint me in the end. But thanks for the memories anyway...
Saturday, May 22, 2010
Sunday, May 16, 2010
My Spelling..............phoof~
I got back like 30mins ago from Subang Parade for my spelling competition and I was expecting to be knocked out the very moment they give me the word. One of the reasons cause previously my school won the State Finals,we finished 3rd and the National Finals....fyi, National CHAMPION!!!! So we were all expecting hard words cause we proved we're good and we're no underdogs in this competition! Everyone knew our school, even a stranger I made friends with knew about our reputation. So the pressure was intense....phow~ that is pressure man....
Of all the things to happen is that we were the 1st batch...LOL!!!!! LMAO!!!! I was just about done listening to the briefing and was gonna try to relax and then....(voice from speaker) SMJK Kwang Hua.....WHAT!!!!! 1st batch again!!!! Last year was also the 1st batch....lol...all I could do was up walk up the stage feeling nervous and walk to my seat...that was all...Thankfully I'm the 4th speller so I wasted no time in keeping my cool...
Of all the things that could happen, the very 1st person to walk up the mic to spell (the very beginning)...spelled his word wrongly,don't call me trying to be smart but that word is very simple to spell...I was shock when he spelled it wrongly and imagine the pressure piling up already with the 1st person getting the word wrong...After a few people who got it wrong, then came my turn (drum rolls)..........(Presenter) Your word is 'APLOMB'.....That moment I was stunned. I've never heard of that word so I just used my phonetic skills and made a wild guess....(Me) Aplomb...A.P.L.O.M.B............(looks at presenter,feeling nervous)....E? (time left 5 sec) Let me try that again...(spelled faster) A.P.L.O.M.B......Thank God the presenter made an exception for me cause I didn't pronounce the word after I spelled it...Thank God I got my 1st word right...So like of the 4 schools on stage, only our school still have our 4 contestants qualified for the 2nd round...phew~
Of all the things to happen is that we were the 1st batch...LOL!!!!! LMAO!!!! I was just about done listening to the briefing and was gonna try to relax and then....(voice from speaker) SMJK Kwang Hua.....WHAT!!!!! 1st batch again!!!! Last year was also the 1st batch....lol...all I could do was up walk up the stage feeling nervous and walk to my seat...that was all...Thankfully I'm the 4th speller so I wasted no time in keeping my cool...
Of all the things that could happen, the very 1st person to walk up the mic to spell (the very beginning)...spelled his word wrongly,don't call me trying to be smart but that word is very simple to spell...I was shock when he spelled it wrongly and imagine the pressure piling up already with the 1st person getting the word wrong...After a few people who got it wrong, then came my turn (drum rolls)..........(Presenter) Your word is 'APLOMB'.....That moment I was stunned. I've never heard of that word so I just used my phonetic skills and made a wild guess....(Me) Aplomb...A.P.L.O.M.B............(looks at presenter,feeling nervous)....E? (time left 5 sec) Let me try that again...(spelled faster) A.P.L.O.M.B......Thank God the presenter made an exception for me cause I didn't pronounce the word after I spelled it...Thank God I got my 1st word right...So like of the 4 schools on stage, only our school still have our 4 contestants qualified for the 2nd round...phew~
Saturday, May 15, 2010
I'm officially 17!!
1st of all, let me just thank everyone at CU last Friday for my birthday^^ I didn't expect a CAKE!!! I want to thank everyone from the bottom of my heart for the song, the thought, the prayers and the love, I really appreciate it^^
I also want to apologize for my not-enjoying-the-fun look yesterday,i'm sorry cause I had a sudden headache. I didn't expect such a thing to happen but it happened when joyce asked me to share a word or 2 and it just came in an instant. I'm sorry for not sharing the fun with you guys and not fellowshiping after that, but I am grateful because you guys remembered my birthday^^ Even without the cake, it doesn't matter cause it's the thought that counts and TQ VERY MUCH JOE!! for the cake^^
Credits to Pn Cheah also for the head massage^^ She gave me a massage on the head when everyone left and I felt better after that^^ Thanks to Ying Khian,Chee Meng, Joe Siang and Lean Lik for sticking with me through that painful headache and helping me with my stuff^^
So a few hours ago I was at Subang Parade to watch the primary school SIR Challenge cause I want to see how will it run for me 2ml la. So I got there, my primary school, Taman Rashna was competing^^ woots! but sadly, none of them made it through the preliminary rounds T-T.... I'm not racist but today I really had no choice but to be racist. As what my teacher and I observed, every time an easy words comes out,it's always the Malays who gets the easy ones....I'm dissapointed because so many tricky and hard words went to the Chinese and Indian contestants. There were so many good ones but it was just unfair looking at those people spelling the easy words...
I didn't like the system as well, let me tell you it's really HORRIBLE!!! The contestants are not going to be in random groups, but with the same members of the same school together with other 2 schools. 12 students on the stage, 4 students each school. When they called for 4 students it's like making the school happy that they hve a good chance because there's four students,but actually there's only going to be 1 student among the 12 who can make it through the preliminary and to Round 1. This also means once all the preliminaries are done, every finalist from every group WILL NOT be the same school from one another. Every finalist will be from different schools. I don't like it cause every school has so little chance due to the sytem set. If only students are randomly put into a group, then there's a chance one school will have multiple representatives and the higher the chances for a school to win. This is all-for-yourselves. Only 1 contestant from 1 school among 3 schools that can make it through. Now that is something I don't like.
I also want to apologize for my not-enjoying-the-fun look yesterday,i'm sorry cause I had a sudden headache. I didn't expect such a thing to happen but it happened when joyce asked me to share a word or 2 and it just came in an instant. I'm sorry for not sharing the fun with you guys and not fellowshiping after that, but I am grateful because you guys remembered my birthday^^ Even without the cake, it doesn't matter cause it's the thought that counts and TQ VERY MUCH JOE!! for the cake^^
Credits to Pn Cheah also for the head massage^^ She gave me a massage on the head when everyone left and I felt better after that^^ Thanks to Ying Khian,Chee Meng, Joe Siang and Lean Lik for sticking with me through that painful headache and helping me with my stuff^^
So a few hours ago I was at Subang Parade to watch the primary school SIR Challenge cause I want to see how will it run for me 2ml la. So I got there, my primary school, Taman Rashna was competing^^ woots! but sadly, none of them made it through the preliminary rounds T-T.... I'm not racist but today I really had no choice but to be racist. As what my teacher and I observed, every time an easy words comes out,it's always the Malays who gets the easy ones....I'm dissapointed because so many tricky and hard words went to the Chinese and Indian contestants. There were so many good ones but it was just unfair looking at those people spelling the easy words...
I didn't like the system as well, let me tell you it's really HORRIBLE!!! The contestants are not going to be in random groups, but with the same members of the same school together with other 2 schools. 12 students on the stage, 4 students each school. When they called for 4 students it's like making the school happy that they hve a good chance because there's four students,but actually there's only going to be 1 student among the 12 who can make it through the preliminary and to Round 1. This also means once all the preliminaries are done, every finalist from every group WILL NOT be the same school from one another. Every finalist will be from different schools. I don't like it cause every school has so little chance due to the sytem set. If only students are randomly put into a group, then there's a chance one school will have multiple representatives and the higher the chances for a school to win. This is all-for-yourselves. Only 1 contestant from 1 school among 3 schools that can make it through. Now that is something I don't like.
Thursday, May 13, 2010
My Question Is...
The disease came. The music was playing. The teachers' words did not ring in the midst. I was sleeping in class. I had to TR cause time was running out. My after school life was never the same. I got out from my sweaty sick bed. I listen to the music over and over again, in case it fades in my head. I crawled. My head was of no help at all. I rested. I tried. I did. I played it. I put all my effort in one small thing. I skipped my training. I skipped my studies.
The day came. I had to do it. was nervous. The worship leader confused me a lot. I was an unhappy lot. I tried but of all things to happen it did happen. I was electrocuted. No one believed me. I sat awaiting the next. But did not realize everyone changed their minds. What words meant to be ok turns out to stab a knife on my back. Without realizing I went on, but suspicions came as I was doing so. Turns out I was right about them. I continued. When everything was done,the few words that came in my head was "That was lousy". I enjoyed my night. Till the day came where the truth was revealed. The answer was expected and it went well. It didn't took long before I snapped. I can't think straight. The day went on with me unfocused.
Looking back. The efforts. The time. The pain. The agony. The trainings missed. Questions dashed in asking...Was it worth it?.. Words failed me. I do not know how but it is UNFAIR!
I asked why? But the answers were worthless. They'll never change their minds. The efforts went down the drain. I can only see the unfairness. All I want to ask, when will it be me? Looks like the road will end soon enough. My question is...... Why?
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Constipation
Don't get me wrong for the title cause lol...I like it!! I was like thinking of something to post cause i've been so so so so so busy and neglecting my blog and me being sick and all~ So I took my dad's advice cuz he claims i'm overstressesd with my speelling competition this Sunday and so i'm just trying to de-stress myself in the best way I know how....lol, not constipating la! Watching Russel Peters XD....yep....the perfect way to de-stress....
You guys know la i've been sick since last Thurs and I didn't go school and all....Lots of people saw me taking my medication during the ISCF auditions and during Meta Aftershock. And let me tell you guys thank you for the prayers but sadly my head still aches even now i'm not so stressed out as before....I'm doing my best and i'll leave it into God's hands for the spelling and the auditions...
In case some of you are still wondering about the post title right, I like it cause like....everyone knows i'm a happy guy, i like wacky stuff and stuff that makes me happy la....so I was visiting Lilian's(you know which lilian la XD) blog for the 2nd time and I saw her profile pic right....she wasn't like crying or in pain but just sheer posing like an emo kid etc...and at the same time I was thinking of a title and so came along Constipation! (Ask me personally why Lilian's pic inspired such a title XD)
You guys know la i've been sick since last Thurs and I didn't go school and all....Lots of people saw me taking my medication during the ISCF auditions and during Meta Aftershock. And let me tell you guys thank you for the prayers but sadly my head still aches even now i'm not so stressed out as before....I'm doing my best and i'll leave it into God's hands for the spelling and the auditions...
In case some of you are still wondering about the post title right, I like it cause like....everyone knows i'm a happy guy, i like wacky stuff and stuff that makes me happy la....so I was visiting Lilian's(you know which lilian la XD) blog for the 2nd time and I saw her profile pic right....she wasn't like crying or in pain but just sheer posing like an emo kid etc...and at the same time I was thinking of a title and so came along Constipation! (Ask me personally why Lilian's pic inspired such a title XD)
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
My Sincere Apologies
Hey guys, sorry for not updating for such a long time. I've been very very very busy and finally today I have a chance to update. My monthly exams are over and I can relax for a while(FINALLY!!!!) So sorry but hey i'm updating now right?
So like now i'm updating, soon i'll be busy again lol...got my spelling competition coming up mah and mid terms is only 2 weeks away....so fast~... So like right now I'm practicing for the ISCF rally pnw auditions... And if all goes well, may God decide His will for me lah, i'm just doing the best I can....lots of practices haha...
And another apology would be for the group I created on Facebook which is Vitamin God, I've not been active and have been very busy lately and will be until after 16th May, all thanks to Bryan if it weren't for him the group would have just died down. And credits to Natasha too for posting^^
Oh ish... My spelling competition is drawing nearer and I'm so nervous leh, with all the NIE, band, studies, etc...I'm starting to worry lar... Please pray for me T-T...i'm already doing my best, I hope I wont get stage fright when I walk up that stage to spell. I also hope I will make it through the preliminary rounds and up to Round 3...that's the scary part (yes it is T-T) I'm gonna do my best cause if God gave this to me, i'll gladly do my best^^
So like now i'm updating, soon i'll be busy again lol...got my spelling competition coming up mah and mid terms is only 2 weeks away....so fast~... So like right now I'm practicing for the ISCF rally pnw auditions... And if all goes well, may God decide His will for me lah, i'm just doing the best I can....lots of practices haha...
And another apology would be for the group I created on Facebook which is Vitamin God, I've not been active and have been very busy lately and will be until after 16th May, all thanks to Bryan if it weren't for him the group would have just died down. And credits to Natasha too for posting^^
Oh ish... My spelling competition is drawing nearer and I'm so nervous leh, with all the NIE, band, studies, etc...I'm starting to worry lar... Please pray for me T-T...i'm already doing my best, I hope I wont get stage fright when I walk up that stage to spell. I also hope I will make it through the preliminary rounds and up to Round 3...that's the scary part (yes it is T-T) I'm gonna do my best cause if God gave this to me, i'll gladly do my best^^
Friday, April 9, 2010
Till I See You - Hillsong
The greatest love that anyone could ever know
That overcame the cross and grave to find my soul
And 'til I see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home
I'll trust in You
With all I am I'll live to see Your kingdom come
And in my heart I pray You'd let Your will be done
And 'til I see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home
I'll trust in You
I will live to love You
I will live to bring You praise
I will live a child in awe of You
You are the voice that calls the universe to be
You are the whisper in my heart that speaks to me
And 'til I see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home
I'll trust in you
You alone are God of all
You alone are worthy Lord
And with all I am my soul will bless Your name
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